Name: Ellie Campbell
*This article contains dialogue on the topics of suicide. If you are having active thoughts of suicide and/or self-injury text "TALK" to 741-741 or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. Your life matters and you are not alone.*
A while ago I was severely depressed. I was hurting so much and I didn't know what to do. I felt so alone. And it only got worse. I was suicidal and I didn't feel comfortable talking about it. I shoved my depression down deeper and deeper. But my depression got stronger and stronger. I had spiraled down to the point where I thought life wasn't worth living.
But then I realized that every time I hurt myself I was hurting the people who loved me. My family, my friends. And if I killed myself then it would kill a piece of them too. That's how my road to recovery started. I didn't want my family to hurt. So I opened up. I talked. It was incredibly difficult and scary. But it was so worth it. My parents were sad, but they still love me and they are so grateful that I talked to them.
I counseled with therapists and doctors and was eventually put on medication. And life has been so much brighter. I am so much more happy. I still get sad, but that is okay. And it's still hard for me to talk about how I'm feeling, but my life is good.
You are not alone. There are so many who love you and want you to be okay. I want you to be okay. So please, talk to someone you trust. You won't regret it. I promise.